14
The Caravan Arrives
For the last ten
days, lightly dark and fully dank fog had been layering over the village from
dawn to dusk. Sunless, the countryside activities got freezed to a trickle. The
landscape seemed to be on the coldly black side of destiny. The village, two
huts, banyan, pond, grassy plateau and the adjoining alkaline wasteland
modestly faded their shivering existence into the voluminous sprawl of fog, frost,
dew and cold breeze. All pervading green paint of wheatlings submissively
saluted the winter with their bent heads under the force of dew drops.
Under the subtle
blend of a dense foggy medium, the sound traveled somewhat fastly. So the road sounded
nearer than its actual distance to anyone hearing the noise of slowly moving
vehicles on it. To the watchman cramming chorus of the children in the school
seemed to come from the pond itself. And the customary abuses hurled at the
buffaloes by the villagers from the roadside baulked so nearby as if these had
been heaped upon the faultless poor watchman, or still in rarest of a case even
upon his neighbour. Such was the winter in which a shivering January was
wooing inside a blanket.
Cramming chorus of
the school children armed with childhood warmth sent a fiery dart across the
pond giving some strength to the watchman almost sitting over the bonfire.
Draped in cumbersome big wooly blanket, bonfires were the next requirement for
the old man-–next to his breathing–-during the winters; so, numerous little
ash-heaps could be seen all around the pond. In their conversationalist
clairvoyance the letters, syllables and numerals penetrated the hydra-headed
time’s veil separating him from his childhood, and a constellation of dreamy
echoes reached his ears from some moment inside the mosque. Lost in them he’d
talk into the friendly glow of his winter companion while breaking small
prickled branches for its survival.
A shrill, high
pitched and monotonously strong tone of a spray-machine seemed to fling the
gauntlet in opposition to the flagrant weather. Some farmer was spraying his wheat
crop with insecticides and pesticides.
“Agriculture requires
too much of poisoning these days,” engagingly he thought, “Thank God, we don’t
have to do the same in pisciculture! Otherwise, I’d have fainted of those fumes,”
his nostrils gave a twitch. “But, what if someone poisons the pond?” he stood
up fully warmed up, while each and every pore of his old skin loosened up under
the warmth of a protecting resolution.
There in the foggy
gloom, the storks in the shallow southern fringe of the pond were stoically and
serenely waiting for the fish to get entangled in their strong bills dipped
open inside the water. Isn’t their fish-mongering mysticism in complete
contrast to that of the kingfisher which jumps down (or drops down) upon its
prey.
The dense covering of
fog had made the task of predators easy manifold. Poor visibility and biting
cold had certainly dimmed the watchman’s enchanting peerlessness. So, burdened
under the calculated apprehension of such thoughts as well as the physical
weight of the blanket, he came across a funster group of sparrows playing a
birdie game in a small puddle of water in the alkaline wasteland. Their
feathering was all drenched up. It sent down a shiver across his frail figure
hiding beneath the clothing.
“They are stronger
than me!” his silent thoughts fell into a comparative mode which in turn
drifted into a calculation of days since he bathed for the last time this winter.
As far as his
neighbour is concerned, he seemed of elephant proportions in that moss green
military blanket heartlessly exiled by Bhagat Ram from his trunk. Shrouded in
the glum and censorious times of the winter his present religious innings had
taken on a shivery-snaily note with the tentative steps of an
ever-so-impressive sorcery; because it is the most important religious tool
with a newly arrived mendicant, who is interested in carving a clouty niche in
the worldly walls he has willingly and happily allowed himself to be enclosed
in. Sorcery with its sharp penetrating hypnotical power certainly has the
capacity to affect some holes in those thick walls through which disillusioned
eyes see an illusionary beam of light.
Bhagte’s religious-self
which had been so easily caged in the hotch-potch obi, servilely sauntered
inside the barbed fences to facilitate each and every need of his spiritual
mentor. His spotlessly clean faith could have never questioned the ways and
means of the exorcising godhead. So, very blandly he was acting as a conduit between
the monk and the small bevy of paranormally itching solace seekers. It gave him
a feeling of being an important player in the holy scheme of the God on earth.
His seasonless faith always found him consensually at the forefront of the gate
between the sufferers and the healer, like this chilly night when he escorted
out three God or evil fearing persons from neighbouring village with their
remedies for the unseen twists and turns behind their betraying and languid
fates.
“Don’t forget to
sprinkle the ash all over the house with that owl bone!” tenaciously the monk
reminded the persons plagued by misfortune, as they descended down the
elevation bearing his hut.
In reverential spontaneity
they affirmed in childlike obedience.
By this time of the
year inundated part of the embankment had decreased to remain as a moat
separating the mound from rest of the walkable embankment. So, instead of
taking the circuitous route across the fields, the devotee and the guru
now used the boat to cross the watery trench. This facility had come as a
blessing to the lame monk and hugely eased the tough task of his nocturnal
gameship with the paranormal.
Very cautiously
Bhagte paddled the small boat heavily loaded with four of them. Standing under
the banyan his religious mentor felt great satisfaction for the fact that at
last his religious reputation had caught on some rusty, rickety wheels here in
this countryside as the word ‘Fatehpur’ buzzed in his ears like a compendium of
all the wriggling ecstasies of his heart.
“Where have’u come
from?” That had been the sage-savant’s first query as they sneaked into his
hut, just when a cold evening was handing over the baton to a chilly night;
their faces sulking as if painful pustules had been accursed all over their
bodies by an animus genie.
“We’re from Fatehpur.
Maharaj, please save us!” they had almost wept as they touched the
paranormal physicist’s blessed feet. It seemed as if a tenebrose fate had
howdily bludgeoned them, griming their lives with loss, disease, domestic
quarrels and many other jarring, drab and dry consequences, which most often
force the sufferers to believe in their supernatural causes.
Now, under the
mistily indolent glow of a fogged down moon he saw their figures coweringly
walking over the embankment. Then the ever-trustful face of Bhagte leavened his
master’s senses.
“He is a nice and
firm believer in God, or rather me,” he thought, with some sarcasm, about the
faithful simpleton (simple to the extent of seeming crappy and cranky). “If not
for him, I’d have died of hunger here among these irreligious, ignorant fools.
He’s even more supportive than this crutch.”
He rolled his fingers
over the supportive souvenir of Sadhguru Parmanand. For decades, without enjoying
any restful hiatus, the wood had uncomplainingly bore the weight of his
itinerant mendicancy. After suffering the rave and rant of scurrilously serenading
time, its surface had turned into a very smooth chocolate-black colouring. It
seemed as if the Sadhguru’s piousness resided in this wood and through
its inaudible homilies tried to calm down the stodgy worldly raylets-–with
their ever-so-potent propensity to play irreligious truant-–emanating from the
chink in the religioner’s apron. So, residing in the wood the Sadhguru’s
religiosity was waging a battle royale from the side of spirituality by keeping
him trudging on the path of mendicancy; stoically bearing the acerbic spate
brought about by his doddering and dodging infirmity (physical as well as religious).
Thus the undemanding mendicant staff-cum-support was paddling his pace on the
path of religion. Only inputs from the bearer had been some rags or leather on
the armpit saddle and metalling at the lower end to provide an iron armoury to the
heavily beaten vanguard.
As far as his
superstitious solace seekers are concerned, it too wasn’t that he was fully
convinced of their folly. In all his exorcist sagaciousness as the performer of
those hotch-potch rituals, he felt himself to be in a pandering morass where
his own mystical magic prowess cast glum, mistrustful looks, ever imploring his
physical self to perjure against the spiritual one. And for the incredulous
laymen these matters are such that nobody is convinced about anything
perfectly. Witchcraft is such a web that a brush with it leaves anyone of us
with some bruised wings and a strugglery by our suspecting selves. What matters
most in this matter is that in a fit of unseen and causative intoxication
sometimes some material (or seen) sinew of the problem at the hand gets
untangled somehow. And it was exactly the same with the Sadhu. His
religious self was never fully convinced about the black-magic experimentation,
rather glum doubts most often adjured by gently pulling his holy robe; but very
promptly the mediocre slit into his soul pushed them inside the vacuous niche
and suffocated them to death. So, in the next moment he justified all that was
happening and evolving. And he justified himself thus:
“They’re not fools if
they come to me. By the grace of Lord Shiva, I open the entangled knots of
their fortune. After all tantra-mantra has great power. And someone like
me who’s been a reclusive and repulsed all worldly pleasures throughout life;
when someone like me who’s burnt his soul in that hard penance urging the
Almighty to bestow divine powers, to cure, to heal, to destroy the evil laden
misfortune, then what is wrong in that?”
Also, it was not that
his mildly doubting self drifted into the conscientious deadpan as simply and
straight forwardly as the above homily by his religious self. Beneath this
tartan surface there was a world of sparkling sparks laced with touch of irony
which momentously flashed and then died with a flushing spontaneity. Inevitable
are such struggling sparks-–if you’re in a full time ritualistic religiosity-–between
the utter and utmost divine light and the glow of human passions. A bit
troubled by these disparate thoughts he walked up to his hut and stood there
facing serene south.
The watchman as usual
had retired in the cozy warmth of his pallet. But his rest was never consistent
with the longevity of a sound sleep and any type of fin-flapping by the fish
would make him jump out of his straw bed and enter the knee deep water to share
their sorrow, their joy, their breeding, mating, playfulness in the upwelling water
around the shores due to the certain pattern of breeze and their nocturnal
shoaly movements. In fact he was fully aware which type of fish would come to
which part of the pond, at what time and for what purpose. Thus, his sleep
lasted for peaceful intervals. Given his ways with the fish-world the watchman
too could be called a nocturnal man like his neighbour. But, nocturnalities of
both men on the mound, by the luck or whatever else, were going on with much ease
because they very rarely coincided with each other.
The ritualist’s forte
of contemplation was broken by some sounds which seemed so strange and
disturbing on this chilly night obscurantly leavened with a mistily intoxicated
and dozing moonglow. These were the sounds of children full of warmth in the
rigorous lucidity of childhood, totally unperturbed by the coldness; displeased
and sullen-sounding chidings by the elders; sarcasmic, morass-laden braying of
a donkey (which was the first one to draw his attention); perennially naysaying
neighing of horses and mules; credulous mimicry of sheep and goats; barking of
dogs like the garrulous trumpets in the ever existent battle-loyale; and one or
two radios blaring dolefully melodious tunes of filmy songs.
Now the visualities
were to follow as his penetrating gaze invidiously groped in the galactic dark
fortuitously spread over the place of the sounds, the little grassy plateau. He
saw bonfires at three or four places. The glow was visible over the prickly foliage
of the keekars separating mound and the squarish upland. Those who were
standing around the fire, their faces dimly reflected light back to his
suspiciously searching eyes. Then the dark outline of some tents suddenly
propped into his visual discernment. Yes, the gypsies had chanced across a temporary
home.
“Oh, these
irreligiously wandering lampoons have arrived here to disturb the pious
plethora calmly spread around here,” subtle cranks in his conscience instantaneously
heaped calumny upon the homeless wanderers.
The very mere
retrospection that once he too was a part and parcel of these uncivilized
savages fuelled his antagonism against the poor ramblers on the dusty destinationless
path.
“But, isn’t it an odd
time of the year for them to slothfully barge into here?” he felt a mysterious
qualm against the peregrinating horde.
The above feeling of
sickness was born of the fact that these nomadic tribes from the neighbouring
state of Rajasthan were often forced to migrate out during the summer months, when
very unsustainably dry and drought conditions forced them to throw their hat in
the ring of better pastures.
“But now these days,
who cares about which part of the year it is? Perennially they are on a crazy
trot. Forever after a disillusioned mirage, thirstily they run a mad race over
the sand dunes and then die a sandy death,” irate religious iridescence inside
him preachified.
This thought
vivaciously exuded his religiosity’s heraldry of late –-of an influential rest
at a place, in the nearest vicinity of a settlement. So, standing at the top of
the mound, he felt as if finally he’d got his feet stabilised on some worldly
possession. It made him forget the fact that for almost forty years he too had
been a wanderer. Thus standing at the bearer of his ritualistic weight (which
had given him wanderless vocation) he puffed out a steamy gust of contemptuous
air in the direction of the caravan site as if to accurse it to perditious
blizzards, where they too would finally meet some rest.
“They can certainly harm
these villagers because the idiots can escape anytime in any direction after
playing mischief. And who can handle those humbugs who cheat the benign village
women,” his thoughts diverted to the welfare of his religious subjects.
Humbugs tormenting
his caring conscience were the pawns from late old frog’s clout. Their gaudy,
gamiest tricks always unfolded so many lethargic, suspicious creases around
those clichéd eyes of the villagers, as a wave of surprise rumbled all over
them starting from the corners of widely parted eyes. But anyone except him
doing this seemed a foolish fraudster to him. So, the fad and falsity of these
people, many of whom would be wandering tomorrow through the village streets
turning the religiously pious trade of exorcism into a dirt-cheap thing (like
telling the fortune written on palms just for a small bale of fodder for their
cattle) made his blood boil. A mere imaginative notion of this eventuality
hugely whetted and rasped his hate for the temporary rivals, who could commit
irreparable harm to the mystical aura shrouded around witchcraft by their
unsanctimonious handling of the trade in an ordinary world’s earthen lucidity,
and that too just for beggings in return. He imagined their womenfolk walking
almost secretly through the streets claiming to cure infertility among men and
women, selling potent vitality boosters, evil dispelling amulets and many
things alike, thus trampling under their witchy feet the tiny plants of his own
black-magic which he’d been nurturing so heartedly. He condemned them as the
devils quoting the scriptures and thus turning each and every line loathful and
sacrilegious.
“I’ll find out in the
morning, whether there’re such people in this caravan or not,” he tried to calm
down the circumfused eccentricity which had so promptly flushed an antagonising
disequilibrium into his state of hiatus-contemplation he was basking in after
performing the energy-sapping witchcrafty rituals.
“But these may not be
those kinds of fellows. Maybe these are just foolishly poor and simple ones who
just wander begging in the streets, showing cranky little games of their
monkeys and bear. Or at the most sell things like ruddle, multani, rock salt,
ahrar and other dry, coarse cereals; make those noisy porringers and
other metal basins, and to sell them they make a beggar’s fleecing noise, more
fiery and portentous than any of their sheet-iron product dumped from the
highest of a height.”
He imagined them to
be anyone and anything under the sun, but not the uncivilized savages practising
his type of blindfolding religiosity.
“If any fraudster
from the caravan helped by a chance occurrence happens to perform some little
miracle, nobody can estimate the volcanic pepping-up of the reverential spirit
among these foolhardily working beasts. And that fellow, unholy and dirty like
shit, would end up making a permanent base here, thus butchering his only religious
ritual---the nomadic wandering ritual performed for some still more wandering
Goddess---to enjoy the fruits of a settled profession exploiting all these
uncertain and flickering lines in the puzzled-picture of fate, destiny,
religion and his some newly accepted God. Just for some trivial momentous gains
in this life even a gypsy would dump his ageless gypsiness!”
From every ounce of
his settlement-aspiring religiosity, he accursed such a gypsy rival. He wasn’t
sure about the real girth of his paranormal clout in the superstitiously warped
psyches of the villagers, hence his insecurities exudingly cropped up such a
rival figure.
“Amn’t I too like
them? Wasted life in purposeless wanderings and now come to stick to this place,”
this thought had a voluble prick at his self-vaunting pride soaring itself to
the Everest, while looking lowly at the gypsies strutting in the abyss. “You
too are just the same!” painfully the thought struck the nail on its head.
“Oh, No!” he almost
spoke aloud, as the visuals of mistreatments meted out to the itinerant
citizens of some still not defined waifish state by the vagrant brats, verdantly
crunched his vague, motley identity comprising an infirm human being, a religioner,
a citizen of an invisible Hindu theocratic state, and above all someone involuntarily
holding the signpost by a path passing through narrow, parochial morass.
“No! I’m not
like them!” he whispered plethorically. “I was born in a family settled in a
village. We never wandered like them. It’s only me who sacrificed the home and
hearth for the sake of God and set out on the path of monkship. These fools
wander purposelessly following the footsteps of some devil. While me and rest
of my ascetic brethren carry His force to each and every nook-corner of our
land.”
He thus swept away
the unholy and belittling pie-crust of denobling thoughts about his real
identity which cleared his mind of the polemic despondency, making him feel as
the worldly son of God.
“They might as well
be just ironsmith nomads, who brazenly spoil their hands in preparing iron
dainties like small sheet-iron vessels, drums, boxes, scythes, shovels and
axes. And to sell all these butchery things, the ever wandering carters use
most malleable, soft and melodious voice. Witty village women find it so easy
to befool this sing-song selling and the poor fellows end up getting almost
nothing save bellyful of fodder for their cattle, which under the ordain of
some beastly datum uncomplainingly go on pulling their heavy carts; their hocks
ever on the verge of giving in. What a spitefully severe hard work for some
survival crumbs for the cattle and themselves! And they would never take any
short-cuts between all this metallic drudgery and their survival crumbs. But
isn’t witchcraft a short-cut in asceticism?” his ever-affirming conscience once
again played a little churlish truant.
Metaphorically
verdant character of the ironsmith gypsies and their ever-conscientious steps
on the nomadic path had suddenly sprayed pithy raylets over the inaccessible
dark vales inside his religious character.
“No, witchcraft is
not a short-cut!” the self-conversationalist reaffirmed his convictions. “It’s
even more painfully laborious than their beating a thick block of iron on the
anvil,” his head felt a spinning tinge in response to a reminiscential
reflection of those nerve-wrecking, flagrant and hydra-headed black-magic
gesticulations. “There is a world of difference between them and me. They’re
just some foolish progenies of some sages whose senses went haywire after the
hard penance. They thus devised this shallow, puppetish way to earn some mild
penance by wandering like ascetics, pretending to be utmostly honest in their
worldly survival deals. Voluntarily they agree to be taken in by the lopsided
bargaining by the villagers, thinking that this stunt of theirs-–getting
minimum output of hardest input-–would appease God in proportion to the
remaining drops of sweat still due to His children who defaulted on them in the
bargain. But all that is a falsity. A mere fig of imagination by their warped
gypsy psyches. Because if it was so, why they are still counted as slothful
savages?” his spirit seemed eager to seek revenge for his lost days as a
wandering friar, when he too roamed purposelessly as if under the black charm
of some gypsy hypnotism.
“Befooled by their
bumpkin savagery these fellows just go on following some foolhardy notion of
nomadic penance, which makes them fit for nothing except idiotic rags bundled
in those carts,” he laughed at their subjunctive fates.
Carts of these
gypsies were bulky, which matched their animalistic efforts with the heavy
hammer upon the red hot iron. These were black wooded structures filigreed with
round-headed knobs and nail-heads, making the pattern seem a pleasing lattice
work. Tyres were all wooden, but didn’t lurch sideways. Their fixation on the
axle was such that they rolled parably with a perfect vertical datum. Ruddily
driven by two oxen or male buffaloes these carts stylistically moved in
parallelism with their owners’ wander-centric spirit without showing slightest
trace of proclivity towards fatigue and attachment to a particular place.
Portentous thoughts of
these grand carts made his eyes look for their existence in the caravan
restfully sprawled under a veily vivaciousness of the milky-way maze of a foggy
moon.
“There’re a few of
them,” he sculpted an imagination about the carts. “But it’s a mixed caravan of
gypsies, because ironsmith type never pitches tents like these. They would just
sleep on, beneath, around or any position connected to their carts---even if
that means great hardships at the hands of weather. That again proves their
foolishness.”
Had it not been the
grumpy, broad and low pitched weary bark of the old black dog, he might’ve
cramped his armpit tightly squeezing the crutch saddle for a considerable
period of time. Something must have crossed the prickly fencing painstakingly
erected by his valet-cum-devotee. In order to provide it with some subtle
security for the sake of mound’s henceforward holy inhabitation status, which required
some man made inaccessibility from any side, Bhagte had cleared the bushes and
shrubbery around the south-western crescent of the parabolic east-west
elongation of the mound and then erected a prickly acacian twig-fencing
starting from the moat to the water’s edge on the other side; leaving a few
feet space between two wooden posts to act as a gateway from which a foot-track
passing below the tree reached the mound top. In that pattern the fence,
starting from the north took its protective arc to the south-east where it
ended at the point of contact between pond and the mound. His ascents and
descents on this linear path had made it discernable as the way to reach the
religiosity available in his guru’s hutment.
So, if not for a
transgressor from that side why the dog inside its kennel would put its sleep
at the hotbed (or coldbed?) of a gelidly languid night. The great reality of
geometry had made its canine sense smell and show unbiased attitude to any of
the masters available at the mound. Its shelter had been made more warm by the
watchman who’d put some paddy haylofts around it. Here in its canine hutment
the dog had retired early like the pond overseer, following the principle of: ‘Old
men and old dogs sleep early.’
Looking in the
direction of the fence the dog barked laboriously, each guffaw distinct from
the other, with a considerable amount of effort involving heavy movement of the
head, the ribs and of course the furious shaking of its fur. Also it wagged its
heavily hanging bushy tail giving a clear indication that something was there.
The Sadhu thought someone might’ve entered from the Bhagte’s makeshift
gate in the fencing, so he fixed his gaze in that direction. Below the big tree’s
shadow nothing came into his view except some shadowy trace of two small wooden
poles holding in between them some prickly branches signaling a closed gateway
to the mound. But since the dog was barking into the western direction he
rolled his searching gaze along the fencing to look out for the intruder. Now
the dog had gone up to the banyan and was barking more heavily with a pendulous
movement of its heavy and shabbily hanging tail, showing that its bark was not
wild and unintentional, but a pet one.
“Who’s there?” the
monk almost matched the dog’s bark, and saying this he lurched hurriedly in the
direction.
The intruder was a
little donkey, not more than a medium size goat. Its topsy-turvy twists of
childhood were frightened by the dog and bouncily it came hurtling up in the
monk’s direction. The gray-white cute little fellow, panickly meek without
braying, went trampling like a naughty desperado over the flowers and vegetables
so nature-centrically grown by Bhagte on the mound top.
The religioner’s
precocious anger went furious, “What the devil is this?”
The dog meanwhile was
putting up fiercest resistance possible in its old age. Without having any clue
to the fact that hind legs are the most lethal weapon with a donkey, the poor
fellow was hell bent upon attacking it from behind and consequently its old
body was getting a barraging fusillade (most of them on its insensitively heavy
nozzle) as the jumping young donkey furiously threw its hind legs in the air.
The dog’s plight would’ve been put in a perpetual gear, if the Sadhu
hadn’t bumped the lower end of his crutch into the little devil’s belly as it
sprayed kicks in four directions near him lower down the slope. Under the ingratiating
impact of the religioner from up on the slope, the little beast rolled down the
slope into the bushes. But without getting a chance to hail his victory, the
crutch bearer too fell into the pinching bushes.
The little donkey’s
panic went into burning cinders as it found itself rolling down the slope under
the weight of bulky human. The dog meanwhile jumped over the fallen enemy and
despite constant thuds from the young ass’ hoofs it kept the culprit down in
the bushes. After a few moments embaled in a frozen-fright the donkey succumbed
to the coarsest and crudest growls of the saggy black mass blanketing it and
stopped its protestations. Victoriously the dog maintained its perch on the
dusted foe.
Shakingly the
religioner got up. His shocked head benumbed to midnight black saw hallucinated constellation of buzzing,
blindfolding lights. With a flushing spontaneity the fall had sent down
frightening shiver along each and every pore of his skin. He felt as if he’d
been imprisoned in a menagerie where fierce animals jumped on his throat. Overcoming
this heart-attacking shock he rummaged his hands in and around the bushes to
look out for his primary support, the crutch; which he found nearby (as if the
wood too had rolled down to follow its master in order to be at the nearest
when he finally stopped rolling). Smoulderingly the shock was turning into a
megalomaniacal rage as he pulled out his favourite saffron sash––which so
proudly hung around his shoulders before the fall––from under the donkey’s hind
quarters. Arrowed by the panicky rumpus the little ass had defecated on it. The
condition of his dear cloth sent his rage soaring to hellish proportions.
“Now I’m convinced
these are the same fellows I doubted. Just arrived and already on with their
problematic games. I... I’ll teach them a lesson!” he gnashed, still trying to
regain his balance.
But balance seemed to
be brutally sundered from his whole self (including the wood) and he
disparately fumbled in the bushes. As it happens in such helpless situations we
accept the first help which comes our way with a supportive hand. He too at
once grabbed the bony hand without even looking at it. Those frail
butter-fingers felt reasonably strong, as the watchman pulled him upwards out
of the bushes.
Slender frame of a
female or rather a girl, looking taller in the subtle blend of the moonlight
and tight knee-length female robe of a gypsy, made her appearance on the scene.
Yes, she was a girl because she had no head cloth. Grand agility and urgency in
her gait confirmed her paradisiacal girlhood. Prickle twigs entangled in the
lower end of her kameez made her running a limping one as she swooped
down to save her little donkey. Sweet-sour cries, shrieks and mild abuses
seemed in total disharmony and incoherence with her language leavened with the
sweet intonation of some springy dialect originated from Rajasthani. With a
small stick she thoroughly thrashed the old rag-tag coat of the dog. Springing
away from its prey the dog ran away; its whining barks made it hear coming from
a longer distance than it really was.
Trembling with anger,
and unable to speak a word as his rage reached dangerous abattoirical
proportions, the settlement-lorn friar looked at her.
She then made the
little sufferer stand up. With the grand height and gait of her compassion she
embraced its neck and head. Little animal broke its stony shockedness and gave
a complaining bray as if telling her all that had happened.
In response to the
little donkey’s suffering bray she angrily whetted her euphonious voice, “Phew,
such criminality to a little donkey! What harm it had done to you?”
The religioner didn’t
speak. Each and every pore of his soul was bristling with rage. To catapult his
venomous angst to the highest pulpits, culprit beast’s sympathiser seemed
provocatively curvaceous in the moonlight shrouded in a strange lunar spectrum;
a full blown, rage provoking female to the religioner because the innocence of
her face wasn’t visible.
“Bewitching
female––the ever persistent foe of asceticism!” he muttered, in his brain’s
millions of neurons the unholy nymphet of dreams during his youth flashed as
the compendium of his hate.
“What sin it had
committed which enraged you and your dog… dirty, fat and ugly like you… to such
an extent that you both decided to kill it?” she hurtled her shrill verbal
charge, which made it sound as incongruous as a flower trying its best to bite
as a prickle.
“Sometimes devil
resides in most beautiful of things!” the religioner’s rage took monstrous
proportions.
“Do you eat donkey
meat?” she vented out her sweet ire. “Oh yes, you must be! Otherwise why you
should be so fat, ugly and strange?” probing feminal fireflies seemed to hold a
candle to the religioner’s daytime appearance.
From the lower slope
she was petalously grumbling, the godman gave the appearance of a pandering,
demonic broccoli hanging predaciously over the bunch-grass tufts.
At the apex of
thunderous gurgling by his rage the godhead exploded, “Every particle of your
body be eaten by dirtiest worms from hell!” he cut the side of his tongue as he
gnashed his teeth with an abnormal lethalness.
Agelong captivating,
bewitching, haunting and now the plain words of insult! The condition of his
ascetic sash, the fall, the femininity struck him like a stroke from the hellish
vanquisher.
She was just taken
aback by the ferocity and archaic hate stuffed inside the flash flood of his
words.
“You bewitching gypsy
girl!” butterfly flutter of her words had made him realise that she was a girl.
“I pray to God, a male devil from the hell may possess your seducing, haunting
spirit, otherwise you’ll abuse the religion and morality in this world! That
little monster of yours destroyed my hard work on these flowers and vegetables!”
“Destroyed my flowers
and vegetables!” mimicking melodiously she unsheathed the unharming sword of
her words. “You talk like a big farmer,” she said it in a girlish taunt, “and
still weep over little marks made by this innocent small animal. In my place
your God will curse you with the fate you so heartedly pray for me, you fatty!
See, how this little one is still shivering. And where’s that devil dog? I’ll
kill him!” she turned her head in all directions to find out the second
culprit.
She found the guilty
standing quietly, tired, near the tree and threw a clod at it, which might’ve
hit its paw and again it ran away with a weeping bark. It seemed to add injury
to the religioner’s insult, who took it as a strike at his infirm toe––though
not on slightest account of harm to the dog.
As the runaway
disciple of Sadhguru Parmanand the notion of relationship between the sex (read
it a female) and sageship in his mind had come to an abrupt halt in a morass of
divine displeasure, loath and discontent. Neither like the Sadhguru’s
life-long ascetics he knew the spiritual essence of sex, nor was acquainted
with the worldly essence of it freely harnessed and enjoyed by the laymen
devotees. For him the long and wordy scriptural relationship had come to an
abrupt halt at a strange entity like a sentence ending with a paranormally
peculiar sign-bog involving the mud of a full stop, question mark, mark of
exclamation or any other linguistic sign indicating the termination of a
sentence.
Writhing in the same
mud, he hollered, “The devil may fuck you to death, you unholy, irreligious
bitch!”
Her modesty
scurrilously infringed upon, she gave a knife-shrill cry. “Then you deserve one
too!”
Her slender arm
forced another clod in the direction of the genesis of harm to her gypsy pride.
Hitting the wood, the earthen lump struck his infirm leg.
For the justifiable
cause of their modesty these gypsy females very promptly become a menacing
thorn from the springy flower of earlier. Her chirpy anger laden with budding
girlish emotions made it once again clear that she was not as grown up by age
as her slender figure made her look in the eloquently silent incandescence of
the moon in foggy medium. Just after hitting the reviler, her first instinct
would’ve made her run towards their temporary fortress. But the little beast didn’t
know this ‘after hit’ maxim of humans, and hence it didn’t budge from its place
despite her chiming pulls at its neck-cord. Vocabulary of her somewhat fearful
emotions was sounded by the small bell attached to the cord, which twinkled a
warning to the little beast to run, but stonily it kept on standing there. She
didn’t have the heart to run all alone and thus leave her pet at the mercy of
beguilingly approaching enraged figure of the monk, who came almost tumbling
down the slope like an atrociously fuming avalanche broke loose by some small
hit at the dangerously lurking snow over a deadly curvature.
“You bitch, devil
incarnation, dead ash scattered beneath the feet of holy sages!” he was
muttering in razor-cold rage.
Psychotic savagery of
his angst had been sharply serrated by the contrasting rasp of unprostrating
and unbuckling face put up by this gypsy girl on the one hand, and the
primordial look of helplessness in the eyes of solace seekers against the paranormal,
who after entering his hut looked at his face as if he was their last saviour.
Furiously rambling
down the slope from the mound top where his neighbour’s bone-shaking effort had
helped him to climb after that fall---his volcanic anger riding roughshod over
the mutant (due to the transfixation between the world of materialism and
religion) rogue gene---he let out the darkened aspect of his mendicancy’s
attitude and aura in smouldering exasperation:
“I’ll accurse you to
death! You hit me with a brick! Hit my asceticism! You foolish girl from a
fallen culture! I’ll make you pay for it!”
The extraordinary
intonation of his fury, the oddity in his monstrously provoked rage (which was
at least thousand times more than a reacting angst after being hit by an
unharming clod thrown upslope by some feministic hand) got her whole self caged
in the fearful webs of uncertainty. Awe-struck and hypnotized by this raging
boulder coming almost rolling from above, with benumbed senses she just waited-–because
all thoughts of an escape had darted away at the apparitional sight of this
smouldering spectacle in the semi-dark–-for his inevitable arrival.
Edified in the
cesspool of his callous rage, he in a spoofy flash caught her unplaited hair
and shook her with a lethal swipe which purported the mordant passion of his
abnormal hate. Horror struck the whole her supple, lithe body. Acuity of this
strange psychotic savagery cut the bud of her charming offence with its brutal
hatchet. In its caustic callousness the religioner’s figure seemed a goofily
waffling spook.
At the peak of raucous
agogment of his rage, he hit his crudely thick fingers on the back of her neck.
Like a thunderous stroke of lightning the jounce was too benumbing for her
pliant nerves. She thus stood stonily. With a hallucinogenically clenched jaw
he struck again. Atrociously hideous fingers this time fell on the petalous
tissues of her cheek. The second strike brought the flower out of her frozen
coma and made her realise that she was no stone. She thus gave a soul-wrenching
shriek which would’ve certainly reached her people, but exactly at the same
time an unending bray of a big, strong donkey at the caravan side––as if
cursing the Sadhu for his heinous crime––embaled her sweetly panicked
notes in the rudely rumbling jigsaw-puzzle of its noisy song in an inestimable
melee with some moment.
She let out the sweet
parables of her cries two or three times and then stopped as if all her anguish
and hurt had been worded off under the squeezing clutch of those brutally
strong, hypnotizing hands. She seemed a harmless, feathery, passive little
sparrow in the prancing claws of an eagle. His overpowering and subduing
rage––like he felt when he madly tormented, through his exorcising rituals, the
supposedly haunted physical self of an unfortunate female, with the very
propensity of squeezing the life out of her––kept her shaking as if to hunt out
the mightiest devil possessing this provocative female.
“Sometimes the evil hides
inside the most innocent and beautiful body!” thunderous fisticuffs of some
tormenting, haunting misogynist-maxim of his soul chuckled in mock
exasperation.
The fragile
saviour––who’d, led by his parable rectitude, suddenly appeared on the scene to
help his neighbour and in a similar enigmatic manner disappeared from the
happening’s stage after helping the portly figure on the mound top––jumped into
the fray once again. When the girl shrieked he was immersed in fish-flappings
on the other side of the mound. Nearby, in a netted-off portion hatchlings
played safely. However, the helpless cry of the gypsy girl sent down an activating
spark, which penetrated the shell of his benumbed old heart and fell upon some
immortalised love crystal lying beneath the modalities of the time’s impassive
dirt. And a filial raylet reflected. It very strangely energized his debilitated
body. With the swiftness of air he ran upslope feeling a lithe anger (perhaps
for the first time in our knowledge).
Without saying a word
the virgin little volcano of his anger spewed out mildly smouldering cinders
upon the predator, who felt a sharp thud at his left shoulder. Caddish and
manic zeal of the religioner tormenting the girl got a sudden rap on its
knuckles and he fell like a dead log.
Replete with renewed
instinctual rage the fallen sage grunted like a demonic dog. With another
beguiling shriek he took a swipe at the attacker’s knees with his wood. The hit
was hard. Springing in the air a bit, the watchman slumped down. Holding his
knees he groaned agonisingly.
“Ooh, how you... you
dirty piglet!? How... how you... you Muslim earthworm??” he scowled, words were
just failing him as he panted under the severe pang of exclamatory excrescence
of lava from the second volcanic blast of his rage. Contemptible swapping of
his senses left him fluffing for wards, “How... how dare you... hi... hit
someone who sips tea with car-owning politicians?!” his throat squelched to
provide wording to his heart dead-struck by this impossible happening.
The watchman was in
great pain, so he kept on rubbing his rickety knees. In fact, in physical terms
he was worse sufferer. But from a mendicant’s reputatious side he was guilty.
He had a clear inkling of this dodgy proposition, which would’ve compelled him
to accept any number of strikes by the Hindu ritualist without making any fuss.
In his fit of cursing
the painfully prostrating figure of the watchman, the raver forgot the sobbing
girl who slowly left the mound, still subdued by the dark panic which was made
universal as the moon got shadowed by some lonesome flake of cloud. Before
leaving the place, she’d looked at the rescuer.
“Thank you, baba!”
very beautifully the thanking phrase had curved over a rosy sob, which for a
moment embalmed his hurt.
The Sadhu’s
curses and abuses knew no bounds and limitations, and at the pinnacle of one
warning he declared: “I’ll get you killed in the morning?!”
Without speaking a
word, the watchman too deemed it fit to leave the mound and try to pacify his
strangely sulking heart with fin-flapping songs in some remote southern corner
of the lough-like pond.
Afterwards, lying on
his pallet the religioner gulped down big draughts of insult and rage. His
mutterings gave much trouble to his tongue as his ire concentrated its sagital
aim at the Muslim watchman. What enraged his presumptuously ebullient heart was
the realisation of the limited revenge-taking capacity of his clout. Every
sinew of his soul cursed his first disciple as a poor, pathetic lout who’d no
teeth to bite anyone showing such ignominious disrespect to his guru.
His culprit-seeking
tentacles tetchily caught the poor villager in the web of his anger. “That is
the hellish problem with these poor, low caste villagers. Day in and day out
the fellow, the dour faced sheep moves around with absurd cowardice. His look
ever fixed to the ground seeks to see the vaults of heaven in abyss. And the
fellow with a mousy heart is under the illusion that he’s earning the religiosity
of all the worlds by performing all these trivial tidbits for me. If I tell him
what this wormy Mussalman has done,
either he’ll pretend not to listen, or meekly ogle at this dirty wrinkled sack
as if afraid of a similar fate to himself as well,” selfless service of the
poor villager came crackling down like lifeless autumn leaves.
His blame-game with
Bhagte hit a snag. An uneasy turn in the bed followed. And the pandering face
of the lessee with a condoning look at his employee caught the imagination of
his writhing soul. The pond lessee in his annoyingly jolly and jubilant ways
always seemed to be in a disrespectful hob-knob with some taunty truant whenever
his uncaring cursory look fell on the religioner. His very appearance on the
mound carried the puissant message that he was there just for business instead
of any sort of lumpenisation by the way of falling in any type of religious bickering.
To eat lots of fish, earn as much profits as possible, and to top it all enjoy
the delicious slice of his passion from the cake of nymphomania––which he did
very subtly (retaining his social slate bearably clean) during his countryside
itinerary––were the cadenced parameters of his self epitomised personal
religion.
“And when that
atheist scoundrel comes here lollingly, he impersonates ignorance of my big
presence as if I’m even smaller than that ant-like old man of his. More than
Muslims, Hinduism has been stigmatised by such people, who don’t know how to
respect the beholders of their spiritual pride. I shouldn’t even think about
telling him what this dead twig has done, because instead of pulling him up for
this heinously irreligious thing, the mere imagination of my suffering
spectacle would catapult him to the highest height of fun and frolics. Phew!
Why blame him for the fallen way of society these days? It’s bound to happen as
long as there are politicians paying a criminal lip service to... to
religion... to His people....”
Feverishly his
boiling thoughts flopped into the lethal cocktail of religion and politics. As
it always happens, since his electoral win Ram Ratan hadn’t shown his face to
anyone from the village. The inveterate politician in him was cuddling and gurgling
over his gloomy prospects as a junior minister in an insignificant ministry
named cultural and youth affairs.
As for the culture
the state didn’t boast of any garishly shining, aesthetically attracting
elements in its agriculture-defined coarser ways of life. Music wasn’t fine
tuned. Their favourite instruments in all their musical gaucheness (we shouldn’t
be too demanding to the farmers in this matter) did in fact provide some
rhythmic upholstery to their hardened hearts sometimes looking down the entertainment
pulpits in a rude agogment. Bellicosing raginis (local folklore songs in
Haryanvi dialect) lolloping over the choppy beats of brawny fingers, palms (and
sometimes even fists) on the tautly stretched rubber over the mouth of a pitcher
signified the modish musical croonings of these farmer hearts. Music thus
seemed to be almost ineffective and mildly sentimental punctuations of heart in
the crude phrases of their hard lives. But the new generation had a somewhat
softer heart (in accordance with the lesser amount of manual agricultural
labour due to the fastly emerging mechanisation) for the melodious Hindi film
songs. Old timers still gruffed over this immoral fall of the society.
Literature too–-like
music–-was laid at some hazily distant end of the primordial furrow ploughed by
the first Haryanvi farmer. It won’t be an exaggeration to say there’re fewer
lines in Haryanvi literature––please, exclude the tribals and gypsies––than any
other society in India .
Possibly, it’s due to the dichotomy between the spoken and written aspect of
the language. These people speak Haryanvi and write Hindi! Spoken Haryanvi is
an intransigently rustic dialect of Hindi formed by a virtual linguistic
fornication between almost untwisting and unsophisticated tongues of these work
brutes and urbanely chaste and baroque Hindi words. In order to save their
tongues from any unnecessary drudgery (which they think is required for
speaking in Hindi) these people have twisted and turned the patron language in
such a laborious way-–just as they do with clods in the fields-–that most of
the stylistically sophisticated edges are worn away leaving behind rudely
uncombersome and sluggishly rustic words, to speak whom the tongue is saved of
sharp twists and turns.
“These politicians
are the dirtiest species on earth. That day the motherfucker made such a show
of it as if I’d a vote which he could fleece in his favour. The idiot was
boasting of so many Hindu things as if he’d lay down his life defending Hindu dharma.
Fool talks of that... that Ayodhya, of Pakistan , of revenge against
Muslims, while right here the one whose feet he touched is humiliated by none
other than a little leechy Muslim. Nothing can be done of this country. It’s
the same country where once even the mightiest of Kings used to wash those
sagely feet and even drink that water. Now it’s utter dark age wherein they are
humiliated like this,” he felt an atrociously raucous pinch at his heart.
Sleep was to be the
only panacea to the frettings and fumings of his tortured soul. And there he
was spread out in his straw bed, a graffito of human ordinariness despite his
life-long efforts on the path of religionhood. Perhaps the pious injunctions in
the scriptures are too good to be really true and the reviling barbs of this ‘physical
self’ mostly prove to be a tough nut to be cracked by the spiritual brushwork.
The girl must not
have told anyone in the caravan about the incident because in that case the
gypsies, without caring for the consequences, would’ve certainly swooped up the
mound. After suffering the harsh mistreatment at the hands of the religioner,
the lithesome new soot, basking in the twilight of girlhood and womanish teenage,
left with swiffy sorrow; her gypsily nimble footsteps following the primordial
soul rewinding to the first faintly-fluid and genuinely warm light radiating
from the initial stars and galaxies at the time of creation, when there was no
humanely-spangled splice between the cause and effect; no abstract
conflagration between material and the spiritual; when the gaudily mythological
incandescence wasn’t fighting a battle of creation among quirky idiosyncrasies
of the vivaciously gregarious createdness and the primordial intention. Souls
following such steps are never revengeful.
Instead of that
poisonous whiff of air into the narrow opening in the bud-–the emerging
threshold of womanness from the girlhood-–embaling a full springily petalous
flower, which certainly suffocated the spirit of immortal flower of feminine
beauty deep inside the opening bud, she wasn’t concerned about the
anachronistic hurt to that futuristic full flower, rather some maternal
instinct made her sweet heart feel the pain of that fatherly frail figure bent down
in the dimly white moonlight holding his knees in pain. So, instead of getting
the tormentor ghost beaten, a pitying spangle from her heart made her worry for
the saviour who looked time-blurringly old and weak in the moonlight leavened
with an eerie secrecy. This shift of pity from the self to someone else in full
forthrightness certainly put an end to the possibility of an avenging quarrel
with the caddish dweller of the mound.
Moreover, she might’ve
an inkling of the domineering presence of the bulky reviler on the mound, which
must’ve made her beautiful mind understand that any deed from the gypsies will
create troubles for the sheepish frail figure. With a wispily good natured
female instinct to subtly sip down immodest trivialities, she also bore it with
a forgiving genteel sense, taking it as a forgettable incident of bad behaviour
by some insane, settled person venting out his loathsome frustration upon a nomadic
girl.
Alack, look at the
irony of it! The watchman’s frail hands while helping his neighbour did not
attract even a cursory attention from the monk. But, when the same pair of
hands turned to support someone else they clanked as the claws of an enemy
eagle in the religioner’s heart. Apprehending gravest of consequences, footsore
due to the nippy incident, the watchman rumped and bumped by myriads of
thoughts had made straightway to the south-eastern corner of the pond. There
among the bogs and ingrown mossy vegetation his heavy heart instantly, in sympathetically
stringed instrumentation, jingled with caring and supportive notes for the fish flapping in labour to lay eggs near
the water edge.
Jollified struggles
of the fish instantly lifted the pal of gloom from his mind still purring over
the incident. “Oh, mrigals are going to give birth to new lives tonight!”
During the day he’d
seen their heavily pregnant bodies flapping lethargic tails in the water grass.
He had an ambiguous perception of the webbily mystique fact that when new
blooms come into being in any form in any floral or faunal species, those
struggling moments are replete with sagely and silently divine struggle which
lends a fresh impetus to the purpose of creation. Like a worshipping devotee
with an immensely caring heart, he sat on the shore to be as near to them as
possible. Warmly burdened under the wearing-out big saggy blanket, he seemed
some high priest musing over waterborne life and its formation from sacrosanct
pulpits. Euphonious symphony of the water cradling new lives in it took the
compassionate beat of his heart to some new pinnacle, and he raised his hands
in praying posture; mumbling words of Allah for the maximum survival of
fishy lives from among lakhs of eggs, larvae and hatchlings now cradled in the water
molecules. Captivating croonings of creation sang a lullaby for the old child.
Sleep thus layered over him and he heaped, just a couple of feet away from the
water, into a knot inside the protective warmth of his blanket. Very soon the
cold grass of earlier changed to a soft and warm bed beneath him.
Curving, coiling,
silvery-black figures of the fish in labour, meanwhile, splashed and sputtered
the water making parably jingling notes which seemed to sing an allegory for
his immortalised love in the form of that slippery, agile soli fish. In
a deep slumber he dreamt the topsy-turvy soli dancing with complete
bouncy-jouncy rhythm in the pond.
When the morning came
the sun couldn’t chuck-up the fog’s sponge. It was giving an impression as if
the clouds had lowered down their vapory fluff. Even the acacian bushy
plantlets suffered a shivering horripilation. Their prickles had been sheathed
down by benumbing small silvery dew droplets hanging pedantically from the
pointed edges. Even the impregnable banyan with its hanging beard and broad faded-green
canopy had the appearance of an eloquently silent old sage of the plant kingdom.
Fog had completely soaked into the canopy which might’ve made any owl hiding
there feel that it was in the remotest recesses of some dense mountain forest.
Pond’s illusionary excrescence knew no bounds (like the reflective sea-sprawl
of dilettantism) because the confining limits weren’t visible. With a nippy
grit and instinctual secrecy the fishmongers were trying to bring some
enlivening warm agility into the shivery, scug surroundings.
Spiffily lithesome
and wild instinct in the horses of the nomads got a diluted liberty in the
foggy surroundings as they scattered around to graze on the lushly dewed grass.
The vast engulfing gloom of the floating droplets on tiny solid nuclei had subdued
the petulant charm of noisy and fair-like night time activities at the caravan site.
Dew and mist laden, their tents bore an opiated look. Above, the sky had
lowered down its sails as if to keep a check on their drollily flirting and
aboundingly absconding migratory culture; to keep them stuck-up to a place for
one more day. Goats and sheep were jutted against each other so besottedly that
it looked like a big bale of warm wool, wherein the aseptic cold wasn’t able to
dig up any shivery hole. The hounds masked a sorry look. Without their
ritualistic morning barks they appeared to be new ethicists suddenly
metamorphosed from their earlier mordant savagery. Prime beasts of burden, the
donkeys, ponies and mules very strangely had decided not to leave for grazing.
In rapt rigidity their stonily resting postures epitomised the prayer of fatigued
souls, knocking at the firmament, pleading that the caravan shouldn’t leave
today itself––just after a night’s halt.
Children hadn’t run
out of their rags. Sitting around callisthenic bonfires elders were sipping
tea. These warming conclaves were getting warmth into their frozen limbs. Quite
unnecessarily a radio was blaring local folk songs, which sounded totally out
of rhythm and melody to their ears habituated to listening mystically cadenced
chants of peregrinatory songs. So, all in all it gave an impression of
unnecessary waste of batteries.
Nobody would’ve
believed that they arrived at the grassy upland just a night ago, because
scrawnily pitched up tents burdened under a dull and gloomy weather bore a
bucolically old look as if they had been there like this for centuries. This
sedentary glint surfacing from the gypsy encampment was in stymied contrast to
their ever-impassive and impatient march over the spindly and sloppy
destinationless path, which they followed as if ordained by some strangely sceptred
ostracism.
It was around eight o’clock . Bhagte hadn’t yet
arrived, so the religioner was still in his bed. The disciple’s reverence had
been by now firmly festooned around his holy neck; hence he needn’t scoop out
his religiosity’s formal show, led by the conflagrant doubt that by not doing
so he’d be harming the reverence-crop cultivated inside the poor villager’s God
fearing heart. He was thus lazily snoozing inside the hut, his body somewhat
debilitated as if he’d had bristling nightmares about that scurrilously abrasive
incident.
Dew in all its wetly-agile
glitterati found a rarefied woolen surface over the watchman’s blanket. But
when he jerked it, daughter-like droplets smilingly sacrificed their silvery
existence and slipped out into the corridors of non-existence once again.
His first gaze fell
at the place where new fish-lives had been delivered during the night. “By the
mercy of Allah they’re over with it. Long live small eggs that I can’t
see!”
He ran his placatory
fingers through the water, soft-pedaling little cherubic wavelets purported to
be lullabying caresses for the invisible infants.
The ignominious
reality struck suddenly. “The Sadhu’ll break my legs!” he shuddered and his
neighbour’s inveterately irascible visage slitherily went bristling through his
body.
He felt a stickling
pain wavering across his knee joints. Drawing up his pyjama he found the
blow had been tetchily hard. The wound was frozen as he saw blue patches on
both his knees.
“If he’s his wish
fulfilled, he is going to get me banished from here,” it was an anguished
smile, while he rubbed his injury so as to melt its heart a bit, which’d allow
him to move limpingly.
Quite naturally, his
sonorously rectitudional self didn’t mull over the impotent rage of his
neighbour. Very stoically he seemed surrendered to any fate befalling on
account of his helping hand raised in favour of that victimised unknown girl.
Once, chucking call
of communalism had snatched away both his parents in a single stroke. But even
after suffering such ravagious losses, even after becoming the innocent victim
of an unpardonable sin, the testament he heired hadn’t even a single phrase of
hate and revenge. Thus, throughout his life he’d been a human subject of India , divinely
oblivious to that nasty chapter in Indian history whose lines were written with
blood and gore.
Walking over the
footpath by the caravan site’s northern edge, he came across skinned-out pigeon
featherings. The scattered sinewy fur gave the tragic inkling of an unnatural
decimation of once flying, flip-flopping birdie life. Life’s uncertainties and
transcience remorsefully ambled up to him. With a shiver he felt the thunderous
punctuations of an uncertain fate in life’s phrases.
“These innocent
ruffians never miss an opportunity to chuck up each and everything coming their
way,” ruefully the thought chaperoned his small head.
A few paces further,
he saw the dorsal, pectoral and chest fins among the skinned out fish hides.
The little decimated carcasses seemed still sorely missing their protector.
There were
premonitory traces of anger in him because it was a fishy matter. “Hummm!
Greedy idiots have done away with some fish too. They must’ve put baited hooks
into the pond when I was asleep.”
The thought of
fishing nail hooked his mind to the baiting food. “What kind of baits they’ve
used? Earthworms are the most common one. But it’s not a rainy season. So, it’s
really hard to get them. Who, but, knows about these wandering people. They can
bait fish with objects one can’t even think of. And the poor water daughters
when come across something so different, they take it as a delicacy and the
result is this,” he thought, staring at the victims of illegal piscary, which
the nomadic foibles easily allowed them to commit as ordained by their strange
stateless gypsy law book.
Under the piscine
law, every fish has a sceptred right––if the purpose of its creation is to be
nutritious morsels for some starving abdomen––to be cooked as a delicious
delicacy under the care of artful culinary hands. These after-death rituals provide
a funeral dignity to a fish. The watchman had a meditative intuition about the
sanctity of a dead fish in a frying pan, because the last rites have to be in
aesthetic accordance with once beautifully agile life. His thoughts thus
drifted towards their culinary skills.
“Have they eaten it
raw? If so, then the fillets from belly and liver must be cooking inside their
stomachs now,” it sent a spindly shiver through his heart for the undignified
treatment meted out to the daughters of water by these ignorant piscivorous
wanderers.
But on closer
scrutiny of the residuals, he realised that skinning hand was not a barbaric
one. At least it seemed to know about decent culinary knife handling: a cook,
not a butcher.
“The man must have gone
through at least a thousand of them in his life,” he estimated the figure by
reading the knife deed of that unknown, strange gypsy figure.
He imagined a strong
black gypsy cutting the fish from vent up to the lower jaw; doing away with the
gills; skinning its both sides across the whole length from head to the tail.
Then he’d the cinematic vision of purple strips and slices of meat cooking with
the strong odour of salt, mustard oil, chilli and whatever other extraordinary
spicy things they might’ve with them.
He doubted the
smelling sagacity of his nostrils, “They’ve lost their ratty discernment,
otherwise why didn’t the cooking odour reach me,” he found himself somewhat
guilty as a watchman. “And the breeze too was coming from this place,” he felt
the pinch of this little chink in his duty as he rummaged his bony fingers
through the scattered silvery strands on his elongated head.
Now, he decided to
have a say to the nomadic piscators in his capacity as the pond upkeeper. With
this intention he lifted his face to the caravan site. He came face to face
with an old lady sitting cross-legged in her dirty rags beneath smallest of a
shelter. It was merely a polythene sheet dropped over a stick dug into the
ground. In her small, old, delicately fragile shrewdness she seemed an
aeonically wrinkled piscivorous petrel.
“Then amma you’re
the one who’s gobbled down this much,” he complained pointing to the fish
remains, while daring to have a look into her narrow merry eyes.
“Hi-Hi... Hee-Hee!”
she gave a slithery chuckle which stuffed a jousting prominence in that entire
lattice-work of age on her keen, puckered face. “How can I eat so much, son?”
she seemed pleased as if he’d paid a compliment to her.
“Then somebody from
your dera has done this,” this time he was a bit annoyed, but its visual
aspect was hard to be discerned on his black morose face.
“Why somebody, son? I’ve
done it myself,” risorial water once again dashed down myriads of wrinkled
ravines all over her face, while she adjusted the disheveled and frilled gypsy
attire on and around her to make her more presentable.
“In funnery with me, amna?”
he gathered as much tartness as he could, “Earlier you were saying, ‘you did not’
“, this time his narrow face showed some displeasure.
“Oh misunderstanding,
son! What I meant is I didn’t eat the whole of it. I need only this much,” she
raised a fried cake of meat mixed with crumbs of bread from an enmeshed aluminum
bowl gone out of shape like her. “But yes, I cooked the thing,” she confessed
emboldened by the unharming nature of the man, who seemed just in a tete-tete
rather than a watchman’s bullying accost.
Still proudly holding
out the sample of her gypsy culinary skills, she warmed her tattered old self with
some self-praise, “You know, I prepare this thing so good that I’m known in the
dera just for this. That’s why I’m with them, otherwise my fate would be
like a dirty rag left out at the once caravan site, while they run away once
again.”
A look at the rissole
prepared by her, once again restored the inevitable calm in the tranquil waters
of his temper, where the thoughts of unfishy treatment to the agile daughters
of water had stoned a disturbance. A look at the delicacy convinced him that
the fish hadn’t been disgraced on their path of fishy martyrdom; rather they
had met a decent culinary burial for the sake of some needy, hungry bellies.
“So you’re the
caravan cook…!” now he asked this just for the intention of getting some
information about the whys and whats of these homeless wanderers.
She gave a cocky chuckle
which shook her rumpled body as if her physical self was struggling on the Jacob’s
ladder of life in order to reach disburdening destination. “No, no... not like
that! I don’t know what you settled people go on making out in thin air while
rottening at a single place. ‘Cook of the caravan,’ what does that mean? Possibly,
you’re the cook of this village,” she popped out her witchy, old, masky face
from her tiny shelter and made a wry face in direction of the village smoked
out of the view by the foggy greasepaint over the countryside canvas.
Bucolic spinelessness
of the ever-on-the-move nomadic spirit made that gesture of hers seem a
farcical purring over the canardical mores and morals. A mere cog in the social
scheme of settled society, he didn’t say anything to this mocking contempt of
the old woman for the village and the villagers.
A look at his
pathetically sulking face made her feel his caged-in plight amidst the settled
society, so she deemed it fit to explain it further. “See, whenever they get something
which they consider special, they come to me and request me to prepare a
delicacy with all my experience.”
“Then you must be a
respected person in the caravan,” he forgot the origin of their conversation.
Also, today he seemed
inclined to get some word-warmth after at least a month of shivery
speechlessness (at least to humans it was so; apart from this the dog, fish,
fishmongers and his silent self occasionally disproved his dumbness).
“Oh, not really so!
They’re all selfish persons. It is only when they need my cooking skills that
they feign respect for me. Otherwise, for rest of the time they entertain
themselves by cracking old-age jokes at me. Even these nuisant children snub
their mucus laden noses at me,” she recounted her old-age woes and slapped the
muzzle of a big goat (perhaps her only prized possession) which scratched its
horn against her back.
Till now the watchman
hadn’t seen the goat inside the littlest of a ramshackle tent. The old woman
was reclining her weak, creaky spine against the animal. In response to the hit
the animal mimicked in high pitched cockiness, as if to throw the old crinkled
nuisance out into the cold from the warm confines of her woolen skin against
which the old sack was juxtaposed in order to avoid a chilly death.
“Then stop cooking
for them,” she heard the watchman saying when the goat stopped.
“No, I can’t!” she
clicked her tongue. “Who knows they might leave me like a sick old donkey to
die here among these savage people, who’re so stone-hearted with rigid minds
that they never budge from their petrifying places. So fraudulently they’re
stuck up at a place that even if someone is dying and crying for water, they
won’t care to put a few drops in his mouth,” from the troubleshooters in her
own caravan she once again pin-pointed her anguish at the permanent home
dwellers.
“Then they’re all bad
fellows. I thought them to be so, amma,” monumental conscience inside
his tattered body protruded a soft emotion for the old gypsy woman, who by the
look of it seemed a centurion.
“Not say all of them!
How can you say this for my Phulva?” filial warmth went spluttering over her
old skin.
“Phulva! Is she your
daughter?” to him the name sounded mandolin-sweet, because the gloom and doom thronging
its sagging spirits over the old woman’s decimated lips quickly gave way to
some mystically synergetic succulence as she brought the name to her mouth.
“Oommn... not from my
belly. But, yes! She’s my daughter by heart,” very strangely the gypsy woman
knew the language of emotions as well.
She seemed to enjoy
this conversation with the stranger, because more than the shivering cold it’s
the absence of sympathetically spoken words which very cryptically emboldens
the wrenching jaws of death around old bodies. So she was getting some warmth
from this little wordy bonfire lest the yawning mortality riding on foggy droplets
might mistake her for a cold corpse hiding under the tiny shelter.
“Does she care for
you?” the fisherman asked. He too, on this winter morning, seemed interested in
talking to a human being as if the hibernating social animal in him had broken
its slumber for a break, compelling him to become social for some moments.
“Oh yes, she does
most of the work for me. Sometimes washes my clothes. Look, she washed it
yesterday in the pond,” from among her provisions she held forth her long gypsy
apparel which had been thrashed to neatness.
It was a black,
half-sleeved female robe: its upper part in the form a tight bodice done in
ornate mirror-work and lower down it broadened (with prominent side-splits) to
almost give it a triangular shape. Its hem had artistic gauge-work. Possibly it
was her bridal wear.
The cloth must have
been swankily hemmed during its prime, but now the decorative sheen of the pleated
frills had gone making it seem like the dried stalk of a flower whose petals
had borne time’s clichéd deed.
“But as far as I know
it, you people arrived here after sunset, yesterday,” his mind reasoned.
Last night while
walking to the pond’s southern end, after the incident on the mound, he had
been surprised by their enigmatic arrival, just like a magical appearance on
the scene. The gypsies had arrived at the grassy upland following the
cart-track traversing across the southern countryside. Starting from the
alkaline wasteland this dirt-path took its serpentine lonesome journey to its
final gateway onto the narrow, metalled approach road linking villages of the
district in that direction to the district road. Most often these followers of
offbeat path took these substratumic links at the base of mobility’s hierarchy
to reach their addressless destination.
“So what?” the old
woman understood the query intentioned by the fisherman’s factual reference
about the time of their arrival. “She washed it at night. There!” she pointed
to a clear opening into the pond in between the bushes, shrubbery and keekars.
“Our Phulva is so beautiful!” she almost sang the name in their dialectically
derivated fragrance of a gypsy flower epitomising the literal essence and
meaning of beautiful flower world. “And still does all this hard work. Eyes of
those village vagabonds tell it clearly that they’ve never seen someone as
beautiful as she, among all of their ever bathing and... and––what they call
it?––coquettish village girls whose most of the time is wasted in trying to
look good and beautiful, so there’s hardly any time left for them to think and
feel beautifully. It’s nothing, just a big drama out there!” she pointed her
frail finger in the direction of the village.
“Is it really so?”
his face bore a mark of exclamation at the mention of this shiny gem from the
gypsy corset.
His mind flashed back
to the mound incident. Enigmatic beauty of some starlet had sprinkled some
petalously suffering novelty in gloomily moonlit night. Her nightingale-like
sonorous ‘thank you’ phrase sucked out some strange emotion out of some blind
zone inside his retired heart (as far as spectrum of emotions is concerned)
slowly doing only the physiological purpose of motoring blood across his
arteries and veins.
The old woman, so
proud of this gypsy jade, was heard singing a maternal boast. “She’s just
thirteen or fourteen––our Phulvari––yet I can bet no girl in this village is as
beautiful as our little flower weathering all seasons like this in the open,”
she spread her bony arms in both directions. “But devil chew up these villagers
who treat us so slyly! The girl, it seems to me, has been mistreated by someone
of those motherfuckers!” very angrily she pointed her clawy index finger towards
the village, but it seemed to accuse the hillocky gobbet of earth because it
was particularly in between the old woman’s sagital pointing by her witchy
finger and the generally spread out settlement,
the village.
Fisherman’s heart
missed a beat. It was none other than this Phulva whom the reviler had abused.
“Mistreated her!” it
just escaped his lips, as his bent up spine gave a straightening jerk.
“Hummm... seems so!”
the woman with extreme alas breathed out a big vapory spool. “At night she came
to me, very sad––extremely sad indeed––which looks so strange for her age. ‘There
lives a very bad man and a very good one over there,’ she told me,” the woman
once again pointed in the direction, still having a vague idea through her dim
senses about the direction the girl had pointed.
“Despite my repeated
askings she didn’t tell me more than this,” in dejection she raised hands above
her head as if imploring the adrifting whirlpool of the unknown under the norms
of some unestablished and unsystematised gypsy belief system.
Sagely equanimity of
stoic waters inside his soul’s puddle felt disturbing ripples once again, like
when he heard the girl’s cry the previous night. It was a windstorm let loose
by the nightmarish tangle between the Godly canons and the human (or devil’s?)
fallacies of their readers and followers.
“These settled
persons never care for people like us who’ve nothing except these endless
wanderings,” defeated tones in her crackling old voice seemed a strange oracle
expressing sorrowful wonderment at the puzzle pieces of life.
An empathic emotion
riding the crest of some wave in the ruffled sea inside him surfaced on
watchman’s conscience, “Oh, don’t take it too heavy on your heart, amma.
It’s just that there’re some bad people, as there’re so many good people also.
If someone instigated by the badness inside him misbehaved with her, then isn’t
it still better that she met someone whom she calls a good one, even though he’s
just a...” he stopped himself just when he was about to describe his wispy
appearance in comparison to the monk’s boulder proportions.
A middle-aged banjara,
the gypsy, showed his encyclopaedically nomadic persona above the old woman’s
little makeshift tent. Very quickly the witty discernment in him alphabetised
the whats and whys of this outsider in conversation with the old woman. Finding
no harming disjointation in the outsider’s character he went back into the
middle of the caravan and joined a group crouched around a bonfire. In a
fidgety tone the radio was blaring news. News, a diary of events which strike
us as a novelty to our ears cupping around to hear some interesting noises,
while the feet try to keep their hold firm over our very personal share of the
world. It can be very interesting to know and understand how this informative
differential of the sedentary matrix sounds to the ears that aren’t habituated
to listen to particular sounds, while their feet drollily strut and swagger to
the implorations of homeless path of destiny.
The woman’s voice
sounded more interesting than the news on the radio, “It hurts me a lot! She
helps me so much. It’s only due to her that I’m able to keep up with these
fastly flying naughty clouds. Sometimes during those lonely hours, when I fear
death’s strike any moment, she sits by me and asks about my past life. Hearing
her beautiful voice my past becomes fully alive and death which a few moments
ago was about to smother me down, cowardly runs away. And whenever the weather
is bad she insists upon me to come into their tent; gives me space of her own
while she just sits down by my side throughout the night. May He bestow most
beautiful of fate––more beautiful than any other girl in the villages and
cities––to this girl of ours!” she raised both her hands paying obeisance to
some unknown spirit of their pantheon.
The apostle of innocence,
budding and beautifying in its chirpy gypsiness, whose veiled and shadowed
charm and aura he’d felt and faddishly seen in the foggy moonlight, now tugged
at his heart more and more distinctly and clearly, as the old woman’s words
lifted the pal of secrecy and riddle separating her full acquaintance from the
watchman’s curious mind.
“The Sadhu
shouldn’t have violated the sanctity of this little flower. It’s a crime none
of his Gods will forgive him for,” he muttered, which the old woman couldn’t understand.
His last night’s deed
seemed holily justified, “Perhaps, God and Godliness cradle inside such
beautiful little flowers with sweetly-soft hearts!” his soul put up its
righteous vanguard as an antidote to his neighbour’s shrill and moral-suffocating
chuckle of rancour and hatred which always condemned the same thing to be irreligious
and devil incarnation. “Now I’m ready to bear whatever he does to me. Even if
he gets me hanged by those banyan beards!” the small old man determined to the
core of his heart, eager for its little but exhilarating stake in the mysterious
scheme of eternal beauty and goodness.
During this period of
warm socialising discourse, the sun had partially succeeded in overcoming the
obstinate invisibility strewn around by the fog. Like liquid gold the yellowish-orange
sheen galored with freshness, firstness and virginity of an enlightening
spectacle over the perpetual gloom of a descended sky in its foggy impersonation.
The weather-beaten, greying jhabua shrubbery glowed more so with the
golden hue. In complete contrast to the enlightening flash-forward in the
eastern horizon, the caravan site seemed primitively old flashing back to
hundreds of years.
And she came as if
riding the sun chariot driven by angelic horses. Her fair complexion––the gypsy
nymphatic bud––made pristinely golden by the swiffy traces of sunrays. Her
fishy lips, full and red, looked as if any time she’d pout compassionately for
the sake of celestial goodness. All of thirteen or fourteen, tall and slim in
her black gypsy apparel trimmed with ruche, she carried the bloom of a little
flower, though she was just an opening bud by age. Plaited frills, hemwork and embroidery
around the corners of her neat clothes and strange gypsy floral and leafy
designs embellished with tiny mirror pieces around neck made her look bounteously
beautiful and agile. It’s only on account of girls such as she that the people’s
minds still recount the beauty of mythological mermaid.
Her unplaited and
unbraided hair entangled in them the chaotic and turbulent humdrum of some
inaccessible vale where the wild and sweet flower smiles in breezily rewarding
solitude. Falling backwards, they were not too long. A curly tuft of hair was
high-pointedly standing alone at the signpost of feminine symmetry of her
forehead. On this crowning lock some fog droplets had mistily condensed, which
shone in the morning making her look like the crowned princess of gypsy
kingdom.
Her mouth was carved out
in perfect geometrical proportion to other facial features. And when it parted
it’d the innocent warmth to melt any frigid heart with her request. Her oval
face under an idealistically vaulting forehead made her look like the most
beautiful houri from the Rajasthani
School of paintings
during the medieval India .
Almond symmetry of
her big eyes gave her the wide-eyed look of a fish; they shone like a pair of celestial-torch
having embalming penetration. Girlish charm in those innocent eyes was
dolloping like hazy waters wherein little-little lotus flowers of womanhood were
certainly eyeing the pristine and primate wild beauty of yore. The worldly
reflection in her mythical eyes galored like a strange fluid of light mixing
starlight, moonlight and sunlight.
As she came, she
looked like the ever-forgiving little Goddess: the sanctity of her beauty
completely unperturbed by that bad incident of the previous night. With the
gypsy equanimity of forgetting such mid-path fidgety skirmishes, she brought
her agile steps to the old woman.
“Grandma, grandma!
See, at last the sun has defeated the fog!” quintessentially her girlish heart
exclaimed.
Breezily swift she
arrived there with spring in her feet and then suddenly stopped with autumnal
sobriety; just like a full of life filly which starts ecstatic jumps without
any seeming cause and then puts screeching breaks for a halt, this time too
without any obvious reason. Perhaps, such mirthful kickstarts by the heart’s
molecules in response to some mystically strange chemical reaction-–maybe
between soul and the physical self-–give momentously leaping upstarts, when the
soul doesn’t grumble over being imprisoned in the worldly chains.
With a narrowly
parted mouth, still under the impulse of that enlivening jumpstart when her
very life envisioned a life (is it like when a dream itself dreams?) she looked
at the man standing below the caravan site. Grateful graciousness in her eyes
had the warm dampness of eyes many, many years mature than her age. When seen
under the foggily bemused sun, the trivially frail outlines of his little
existence, which her beautiful eyes brimming with sparkling novelty had
daughterly tried to get acquainted with on that fateful night, now gave their discreet
clarity about this fatherly saviour of that foggily moonlit night. She at once
recognised him.
“Oh, the good man!”
the silent flower whispered.
She couldn’t say
anything else. An awe which’d been buried in the cemetery suddenly seemed to
revive its ghostly spirit. A look at her saviour made her mind reflect over the
thundering violence and hate garrulously vented out by the ‘bad man’. A
whitening tinge on her golden complexion made it seem as if she saw the
perpetrator of hate clearly, standing mountainously by the mole-hill of
goodness. Those bulging eyes, wide mouth, hairy thickets, twisting lines in the
corners of eyes sneaked and penetrated through their night time hiddenness and
burned around her like a perilously smouldering celestial object doomed to fall
in some orchard basking in wilderness.
With consummate
alerting notes, his employer’s eponymous voice came acalling over the sunlit
foggy intervention between them. The unobtrusively jolly fellow had called his
man from the road. The latter instantaneously got it that the vehicle had arrived
with fishworkers. Six or seven of them, icily enthused about the job at hand,
were crossing the moaty water separating the embankment and the mound. He too
at once started for his duty, without turning his face back to look at the
girl, though his soul was encoring for a second look at that daughterly
lenitive face of hers. Now, he wasn’t afraid of any type of groveling
retaliation by his invectively fuming neighbour.
There at the mound
the labourers pleasantly came out of their vestures as if it was a month of
June. Just clad in their all types of funny shorts they swamped the area in
between the huts. All sorts of fishy characters were these men. Some were exercising
their muscular limbs to get pre-netting warmth. One gave a breezily sharp
concussion to his bicep; other, a shark like shovel nosed, spun his hands in never
ending movements of fish-fins; another one percussioned his body like a cute and droll dolphin; still another
leapt in air with the agility of a flying fish. All in all they seemed frail
man’s marauders brawnily flexing their muscles right in front of his foe’s
door. And when the watchman joined the group, to an objectively scrutinising
eye he would’ve seemed an all powerful, witty, old mentor of these powerful fellows
now getting ready to work under his command.
The religioner was
casting sardonic looks at them. Psychedelic cauldron of his anger was brimming
with rage even though he tried to control it through carousing sips of waiting
for the right opportunity. He felt so helpless that the obscenity which was
left in syncope on his tongue at night (when sleep applicated anesthesia to his
feverishly tortured self) hoping to awake in the morning and explode wildly at
the culprit’s first sight; now, alas, writhed in pain on his tongue making it
twitch like a leech sucking its own blood. Unable to bear the teetering
avalanche any longer he hid himself in the quilt which Bhagte had gifted him in
effervescent obeisance. The monk’s only mute and meek link in any possible
revengeful scheme or action wasn’t present there to make a hue and cry (if
possible for his divinely undisputatious persona) about the mistreatment meted
out to his guru by someone who was least expected to do so, both
physically as well as religiously.
Also, the persons
whom he had been able to be in contact with were those paranormal and superstitious
remedy seekers who themselves had suffered the strut and swagger of destiny.
Most of them were sharply filthy old women. Ruffing and puffing in the warm air
inside the quilt he culled his mind over his coterie to pick out any single one
of them who’d turn into a fearless lion at the mere mention of this crime
committed against his venerable spiritual beholder. Alas, all of them were
found to be butter-fisted frail unworthies who’d been tortured by crippling
senescence, and hence taken to spiritual-cum-superstitious solace in the
uncannily ameliorative air weirdly hanging inside his hut.
“These’re really
dark, evil times. Only the cowardly crippled and helplessly butter-livered
fellows are taking to religiosity. That’s why Hinduism is losing in battle
against Pakistan ,”
his impotently suffering rage was splitting to the seams. “I’ll never forget
this crime against a holy man and teach this ant-fucker a lesson when I’m up to
it,” he gnashed a resolve. “What’s the worth of my religiosity here in this village?
If I feel helpless in taking revenge against even the weakest person in the
village, then what’s the use of pepping false pride in myself by counting just
the number of these infirm and weakling fools who fall at my feet as if I’d
turn them into roaring lions, ready to tear down opposition from both humans as
well as ghosts. These are real crooky times. To save ones pride and dignity of dharma
one should have a few powerful and strong devotees, or call them whatever, in
ones coterie in place of these lambs who piss out just hearing the name of
ghosts, even though they’ve never seen such a thing in their lives. And if a Sadhu
like me has to build up the honourable temple of his religiosity then he should’ve
some strong support, otherwise my days here in this village won’t last even
till this crumbling dirty nest falls to the weather,” impetuously impulsive
worldliness was very fastly sucking him into the vacuous vortex of rapturously
whooping unascetic throes of passion.
Sheepish visage of
Bhagte, the first disciple, oracularly appeared in his power-centric
imagination. Historically cowered under his casteist trepidation, the fellow appeared
a virtual stigma in the name of a disciple, who couldn’t even protect the
honour of his guru.
His soul brawled with
a heart-wrenching prayer to the Lord, “Oh Shiva, why can’t I’ve a devotee like
that big landowner whose fields have almost a monopoly over the western and
southern countryside? Even those dirty young ruffians---who’re so quarrelsome
without any plausible reason---would fit in the scheme!”
Repulsively
attractive faces of some such young tramp characters hovered optimistically in
the bad atmospherics of his mood. Their faculties of monstrously mimicking
tauntery, abusiveness and bullish boxing he’d witnessed on some occasions made
his heart pine for their pupilage.
His agitated self was
very fastly convincing his religiosity that to survive and get oneself pushed
up in these evil times one needs a propulsion and concussion by some equally
dark forces, who are acquainted with the dirty designs of contemporary society,
where the crystal-white and adulating faith of people like Bhagte is not a
supportive force, rather it’s an obligation to bear with. With a butcher’s
cruelty he forgot how the poor villager was fattening him by getting himself
battered and bruised by predatorily stepping into his accursingly prohibited
resources.
The thought of
politician almost brought tears of desperation in his victimised eyes. How
cruelly helpless one can feel when one finds himself unable to dispense even
littlest of revengeful justice against the pride-bruising crime committed by
someone whom he hadn’t considered even worth the dirt lying at his feet!
“These politicians
will chuck up even the hides and bones of this country. The cheat was making so
many castles in air that day. Took tea with me! Touched my feet! And now
forgotten me as if I’m no more alive,” icy dejection froze him inside the warm
air pacifyingly ballooned around him by the quilt.
Foibles in his
religious apron––perhaps they pinpricked his conscience for being unholily
tabby blots on the saffron colour of renunciation––tried to justify to the Lord
Shiva his soul’s craving for those ‘other types of devotees’. “Aren’t they all
fighters of successful destiny during these evil-laden times?” he reasoned to
the God. “Evil can be conquered mostly by hook, sometimes crook. What matters
most is the grabbing of luck. Long and arduous path of hard work and honesty most
often fails during these bad times, because it’s misfitted in the contemporary
world. To survive in the near vicinity of these irreligious fools one has to
grab luck in whatever form it comes and with whatever means employed.”
A roving mendicant
mightn’t care about these mendacious social loops, for there is a kick of the
unknown which constantly strikes at his ascetic rumps and he runs safe from these
social snares. But if someone worn-out of such dashes on the safe (or
escaping?) path of mendicancy decides to have a paying rest in the near vicinity
of such impiously laid out worldly snares near and around a common householders’
settlement, then the holy feet or hands are sure to get caught in these irreligious
loops, while the farcical spider (call it the survival) takes its lurching
steps for annihilation.
“It won’t be too
surprising if someone pulls me by hair out of this dirty place and throws me
into the pond just for the sake of entertainment of his nasty senses, while
these weaklings, the so called devotees of mine, won’t even dare to ask why he’d
done so,” a snaring shudder sent a trepidation across his settlement-lorn ascetic
self.
He muttered a cursing
complaint to the God for making him such a helpless wasp entangled in the
unholy, worldly webs where the demonic spider chuckled at his doomed fate. And
when it became unbearable for his insected religiosity caught in webbish mire
of worldly reality he got out of his quilt like a soul condemning its own
worthlessness. Pathetically browbeating and self-accursing he decided to try
his case against the culprit in the latter’s own court full of fishing judges.
Hell bent upon decimating his reputation (in order to get sympathetic fire for his
pitifully smouldering self) he made a scene before the labourers, the pond
lessee and the atrociously afraid watchman. Breaking his self-respect to pieces
he performed the melodrama, recounting the numerous atrocities blasphemously
committed against him by the watchman. Jollily they took the lame Sadhu
to have gone crazy due to the excessive intake of opium, who was now involuntarily
turned grandly theatrical under the ecstatic frenzy of hallucinating liberation
of his aeonically inhibited senses.
Uncorking of this
religiously unpalatable gigantomania left them completely befogged by the
pomposity of peeling laughter. The watchman was stunned by this abstrusely
incredulous behaviour of his neighbour, whose very limping gait, grunt, breath
and stare of revulsion did possess such pathological power that he used to feel
fatally suffocated whenever he came across any of these. Behind all his
melodramatic puppetry the religioner’s unfructuously drooling moans went
wasting their fuel without bringing any seriousness to their jolly moods.
Baited by the Sadhu’s
funny inducements, sluggishly luring joviality in the lessee burst forth with
full intensity on the dryly plain surface of rude jocularity. Stocky, sturdily
built which made him look slightly bow-armed and bow-legged---this littlest of
unpleasant deformity, however, came undone when one saw his smart, full-of-life
face and its dignity vouchsafed by a thinly chipped moustache--- he completely
surrendered himself to jovial abundance.
Sometimes, a stagy
lie when told purportedly as a mountain, but having a staid mole-hill of some
shred of truth as its causation, becomes a tragically ironical farce. So, the
fishermen warmed themselves (except the watchman) with the soul-tickling mirth
of laughter fuelled by the elephantoid religioner’s ant-like browbeating joust.
Even if the lessee,
in all seriousness, had given a serious ear to the sanyasi’s tantrums, he won’t have even thought about displeasing
this old genious of fish trade who made such a lucrative trade as fishing look
so trivial, seemingly pauperising and worth ignorable like him (given his
unsocial existence or call it social non-existence) to the eyes of the
villagers, thus minimising the chance of arising anyone’s jealousy and
consequently lessening the risk of poisoning of the pond.
Such was at least the
hard reality which’d taught some bitter lessons to the pond hirer in the past.
He’d tried various types of fellows for the job. But, in one way or the other
they integrated themselves with the village life, or say they found some role
or relatedness in the settlement. Some befriended locals, some made enemies,
some eyed the village women who came to the pond with their buffaloes, and some
wandered in the streets making it a recognisable fact that some significantly
paying fishy enterprise was on profiteering tracks. Out of such permutations
and combinations of previous watchmen’s socialities there arose someone or the
other with the propensity of spoiling the fishing game.
So, here was this stonily passive and unsocial
creature, ever immersed in his little world defined by his duty as the
watchman-cum-advisor for the pisciculture in the pond, operating at the outer
fringe of the village, maximising the profits of his employer by his time-tested
knowledge and ways and means of the fish business. But, by nature destiny has
her own see-sawing ways. We don’t have the sovereign right when it comes to
choosing our social roles and responsibilities; rather they’re suddenly snuffed
out of some blind zone of the unknown and loaded over us. This man, who’d very
rarely spoken to anyone after his arrival in the village, suddenly found a
little savioury role cut out for him, as if the destiny wished he might not die
even before his ultimate roll-call was made from the register of mortality,
because we turn to completely unsocial ash only after our death and lay buried
in the grave. Here was that fairy like gypsy girl with her flowery cause and
petalous purpose which sent a socialising, enlivening whiff of air into this
living grave which moved with a coffin like unreflectivity (with a little world
encaged inside it) around the pond.
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